"Your destiny is waiting for you; you just have to want it bad enough." Jillian,Biggest Loser.
I heard this quote while watching Biggest Loser. Next I saw a woman on t.v. who was in a wheel chair due to a spinal cord injury who wanted so bad to walk down the isle at her wedding. Due to technology and her determination not only will she walk, she will also dance with her groom. I sit here almost feeling defeated and these 2 things inspired me to get out of my dark place. 1 mile.. did you see that big ol' 1 yep I conquered a whole mile today. I was dragging a foot and needed Moms support for the last 50 steps but I made it. No walker! Did you all know there is awesome powers within you and your amazing brain. My brain fights to talk to my limbs but today I pushed my brain to tell those feet we were running across the finish line. Was I? No, but in my mind that's what I was accomplishing. I think there are many of us who don't know what we are capable of including me. My days aren't easy but I am ready to live with the idea of crossing that finish line with each step I take. The pain isn't pretty but the accomplishment is beautiful. I rewarded myself with a haircut.. a professional one and eyebrow threading. Tomorrow I will get it colored and I am super excited cause it has been a long time since I treated myself. I have a gift card for a massage and then a night out next Friday to see Blue Man Group. So I just wanted to tell you guys this, not to brag but to tell you I'm back. I am finding life again and I will fight this disease and any barrier that steps in my way. Fight for what's yours, in the end it will be worth more than you can imagine.
