Come ,lets have a seat and talk....

My pain is outstanding... If I had someone to acknowledge my sufferings, I believe it would catapult my healing process.What amazes me is that down to the pinky finger -it hurts-
 Why would I need acknowledgement? you ask!
The thoughts and experience are so unbelievable; even mind boggling, therefore I feel the need to shout it from the roof tops. So. YES!! your frickin pinky finger can hurt!

Slow Down

In science and epistemology (the theory of knowledge), a paradigm / is a distinct set of concepts or thought patterns, including theories, research methods, postulates, and standards for what constitutes legitimate contributions to a field.

 

Frustrated, seeking, silent, listening, aware, alone, peaceful..the list and the adjectives go on and on.

Would I choose gratitude or complaint? I find that when the negative adjectives come in to play- I then need to look at self.

At this moment I feel stripped of anything I knew. I'm becoming a blank slate. there is a paradigm shift about to happen so I seek quiet places so that I can hear the answer. I loved who I was so why do the memories become faint. Who will I become? I feel inadequate yet I feel peace. No more tug of wars, no more. I am loosing those titles that once were and creating new ones. As I felt the walls closing in, and that my thoughts and words were my own; I thought I should not put the weight of my worries on another. I need that one scholar that can articulate my frustrations and protect my words until I come out of this- with answers....believe me when I say, my thoughts and feelings are intense and what better idea; other than flooding the papers. There is not another Human that should have to bear the weight of your burdens. Take the time to look within, if you are unsettled Go- and find that quiet place. First find a peace within yourself, don't let anyone rush your decisions. Seek the answer to who you are- make a list of adjectives that describe you each day-review the following month. look for patterns and answers..continue to read and educate yourself.

Genealogy, Journal, seek Knowledge, stay present with your disease and stay above it, renew your spirit each day, enjoy each day- to the fullest. Speak kind words or stay quiet and read kind words. Change your vocabulary.

Lead, Kindly Light

Lead, kindly light, amid the circling gloom; Lead thou me on!

The night is dark and I am far from home; Lead thou me on

Keep thou my feet; I do not ask to see

The distant scene-one step enough for me.

I was not ever thus, nor prayed that thou shouldst lead me on

 I loved to choose and see my path; but now Lead thou me on

I loved the garrish day, and, spite of fears,

Pride ruled my will. remember not past years

So long the power blessed me, sure it still, Will lead me on

O'er moor and fen, o'er crag and torrent, til, the night is gone.

and with the moren those angel faces smile,

which I have loved long since, the lost awhile