Just Sunning

It took faith and a little push over the edge. Do you ever get a strong feeling that something is right for you? Do you always listen and take a leap of faith? Well I am finally in a healthy enough place that I can hear those moments that say "you can do it". I always felt like I could move mountains if I just had one person believe in me. I have come to understand My Heavenly Father believes in me. He gave me purpose and strength for a reason. I love to here my earthly Father say "God gave you these trials because out of all my daughters he knew you had the strength". As a child I fought for my Fathers attention. I was always trying to keep up with my brothers so that my father would notice me. My strength stands strong as I battle MS and slowly my spirit grows and strengthens. I love that I am creating a business and focus that allows me to touch other peoples lives. Already I can see the opened doors for me and I am so grateful for the many people who are patient and support me.

Yesterday it went from clear skies to dark clouds and rain within 30 minutes. It rained for a while and then the sun appeared, yet it was still raining. I said to my boys " how is it the sun is shining but it is raining". My sons reply " this weather has mixed emotions maybe the sun just need to cry instead of the clouds". :) I felt a connection to this sweet conversation. Sometimes my sun is shining but I find a reason to cry. I hope we can all recognize the sun in our lives and our tears; will be tears of joy.

“I believe in Christianity as I believe that the sun has risen: not only because I see it, but because by it I see everything else.” -C.S. Lewis

Connecting dots.....

I promised myself I would not write without having a new purpose and experience. I am here in Star Valley, Wyoming. Star Valley was always a fun 2 week vacation when we were children but the truth is our roots are here. This to me is some of the most beautiful country I have seen. I come here and feel peace and understanding. See my grandfather bought 100's of acres back in the 70's mostly for cattle at first but my Grandfather had a dream and a vision and in the end he created not only a town but a resort. My Grandpa instilled that dream within everyone of us Stewarts. So when I come to Star Valley I find myself here. As I talk to my cousins a see a piece of me in each one of them. We sit and we laugh and we often times say " us Stewarts" because there is a title and claim to that name. That name has power and presence and I am realizing so do I.

OK so I go to a fair about 2 weeks ago when I was talking about purpose. I physically was having a bad day, having to use the walker to walk... I hate when that happens but I just needed to get out. My family kept trying to make me sit on a bench while they looked around.. now what fun is that? I pushed even harder and even further to try and prove I could do it. There came a time that I had to use the restroom but I didn't want the walker slowing me up so I walked without it. :) yah well I barely made it back.. The victory was I didn't fall. So I get to the main bench where all the old ladies are resting and as I sit there I see my favorite candles, Scentsy. I go and buy some and in that moment of choosing my scents something clicked inside of me. I saw myself in the girl working and I felt for a moment I could have a purpose other than mourning my disease. I gathered my candles and my info and went home and sat on it (not literally). I found myself creating opportunity to live and to give. Luckily Mandy called me and asked was I still interested in the opportunity and when I got that message everything in me said, "yes". So I had my first Scentsy party or sell and it was a success. I feel really good about all of this because it is getting my wheels turning, helping me look past my disability, creating opportunity and best of all giving me purpose.

When you connect the dots between your day's simple pleasures, life seems fuller and more satisfying.